Wow...so I'm on the road to rediscovering the concept of dating. Really enjoyed it to until ^%&%**# BAM!!!!!! WE HIT A BRICK WALL!
WTF! What happened? Why does it always seem like I'm the last to know that it wasn't going well. Didn't we just have a nice flirty and cute conversation? So why all of a sudden do I get a cold shoulder...short conversation and emotionless texts.
I have had about enough.
As I started aging, I realized that what I wanted in life I was only going to receive if I opened my mouth. So even though I was shy (some of my friends don't believe this!) and sometimes an introvert who found it hard to voice my opinions, I started speaking up. And despite my extreme fear of rejection I starting telling the opposite sex, "I like you. I want to see you again to see where this could go." Now, it didn't always work but I felt progress. Isn't that the ultimate goal you'd like to achieve with age--progress? So why do the "gentlemen" I find myself dealing with lack progress or even a clear and strong voice to admit how they feel and be honest with me. I am starting to question myself and I guess that's okay. Any person who seeks personal growth should. But, I'm a little afraid of the answer I might find...
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